If we look forward to all the changes we plan to make during the first month of the new year, then in the second month we often find ourselves looking back at where we’ve fallen short. Even when we know it’s for our own good, it’s hard to change. Most of the goals and resolutions we set for ourselves are for the good; exercise more, save a little, spend more time with family. But change is hard.




Change can also be scary. And nowhere is this more apparent than when the changes in our lives aren’t of our own doing.

At the beginning of 2017, I can remember saying that I felt like God was about to do something major in my life. I felt restless in my spirit. An anticipation for… something.  Change was coming, but I had no idea when, where, or how. So it was only slightly surprising when, during a sermon, I felt God calling me to go back to college. “What?” I thought. Now, I spent seven years just to finish my Masters, working full-time and going to school part-time.  And when I graduated, I was done. That was it. No plans to go for more. So to suddenly have the thought to go back… that I needed to go back… could not have been from my own will.

So I prayed. And I asked others to pray for me. And I came to an understanding with God. “Okay,” I said. “I’ll do my part, but you’ll have to make a way.” Something would have to change to make this plan possible.




That change, coming barely a month later, was my company losing their contract and subsequently me losing my job. “This isn’t the change I meant, God!”

Jeremiah 29:11 says: “I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” (NIV)  This is a scripture that I have etched on the tablet of my heart. Me and God, we’ve done this song and dance before. I find immense comfort in this verse. “I know the plans,” God says. “You don’t have to know them. You just need to trust me and be faithful in what I’ve called you to do.”  God is the master weaver. He sees the whole tapestry. Each of us, the individual threads whose lives twist and turn to carry out God’s beautiful, perfect work. We can’t see the end result of our twisting. But God does.

I know many of you may be going through seasons of strife. Not all changes seem for our good. What good is there in sickness, death, or sorrow? But God’s prosperity transcends our own understanding. God sees into eternity, while we can barely see past today. And the hope He offers is what we are to cling to during those dark times. We don’t have to understand. Only hold to His promises.