I have a confession to make: Since my last blog post, my life has been a whirlwind. As the Worship Tech Director at Okolona Christian Church as well as the Overseer of Cultivate PRO, this last month has been crazy. I’ve been involved in a DVD shoot, have prepared for a Team Vision Night, designed, built, and implemented a stage reset, all while planning for an upcoming CD Release Party/Worship Night. I didn’t even mention my life outside of church. I’m so blessed I have opportunities to use my talents for the Lord – opportunities that bring me great joy and excitement - but recently, I realized something wasn’t right. I felt as if something was missing. I knew that I was doing what God wanted me to do, so why the conflict? As I was standing in my garage (AKA: my workshop), I looked at the custom sign I’d just made for Cultivate (Okolona Worship Ministry). I began to think of all the work/ministry that I had been doing for God and it struck me:  I’d been so focused on the mission of serving God, and the church, that I’d slowly allowed my relationship with Jesus to suffer. 


It started out simple. I meant well, but I allowed my work for God to become more important than my relationship with God. Yes, I read my Bible. Yes, I prayed. But it became less of a priority because I was distracted. It seemed ok if I missed a day, or two, or three, because I was too busy to notice. I was more focused on the tasks and deadlines than I was on my time in His Presence. As I stood in my garage, I realized that I’d become like Martha in Luke 10:38-42.

While they were traveling, He entered a village, and a woman named Martha welcomed Him into her home. She had a sister named Mary, who also sat at the Lord’s feet and was listening to what He said. But Martha was distracted by her many tasks, and she came up and asked, “Lord, don’t You care that my sister has left me to serve alone? So tell her to give me a hand.”

The Lord answered her, “Martha, Martha, you are worried and upset about many things, but one thing is necessary. Mary has made the right choice, and it will not be taken away from her”. (NIV)


I had allowed serving God to become more important than sitting at the feet of Jesus. God wants to have a relationship with each of us. He does not want us to be a bunch of Christian zombies walking around serving. Just because our hands are out front, doesn’t mean our brains are connected! Granted, volunteering and serving is a wonderful thing, but when that becomes our main focus or becomes more important than our relationship with Christ, then it’s time to step back and do some self-evaluation. It is not healthy to allow our service to God to replace our relationship with Him. They are meant to be separate and in their own specific place.


We need to ask ourselves the tough questions. “Am I doing too much? Is my relationship with Jesus lacking? What can I do to renew my relationship with Him?” For each of us the answers will be different. Some reading this post will find that their relationship with Christ is thriving. To you I say “Bravo!  Keep it up!”  But for those who might be in a season where their relationship is deficient, I challenge you to stop and consider what’s more important: doing tasks for God or having a relationship with Him. I pray we all will define the relationship we have with God and make any changes necessary to grow closer to Him!